I did go to therapy yesterday, and did bring up the memories of abuse by a babysitter. It's not just about remembering it. We do work through it, but it is very slow going because my anxiety about the situation is so high. Next week we're going to be working with a specific trauma protocol of lifespan integration therapy. It's just so hard going back to that memory, and I feel so depressed, so low. I can barely get myself out of bed in the morning.
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Originally Posted by sju9698
For me therapy is what actually allowed me to finally put the abuse in the past. By going through the process I learned how the abuse was still affecting me today and gained a greater understanding of myself. I started having flashbacks and then had no choice but to remember. I could have either stayed in that place or work toward reclaiming myself. I'm not going to lie, it was painful and hard and I wanted to quit many times over. But in the end, it is so worth it! I have reclaimed my mind, body and spirit. The best money I have ever spent on myself.
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