Most of my childhood is blank - and I am just now remembering sexual abuse (I am 57 so I have had no memory of my childhood before age 13 for a long, long time). You need to talk to your T about this - it is the only way to heal your wounds. It will be very hard to talk about and I agree you might want to give your T your post first. I did that - I wrote about it then we talked about it. I found it very difficult to write about and even more difficult to discuss and we don't go into it every week - it is still too painful but it has to be done in order for me to heal. Please, please, talk to your T about this.