Eden, I have felt the same things as you for so long. The demons, the racing thoughts, the need to destroy everything and even sleepless nights. All I have been able to do is just stay in my room honestly, I think its very brave of you to even talk about all these things, I wouldn't be able to because of my paranoia and antisocial tendencies even on here. Although many may disagree, what I did was just wait it out. That is all I have been able to do all along.