Great insight. Thank you. No I hate keeping journals. But perhaps it's a good idea.

Well him not having dress clothes all by itself isn't an issue ( he isn't a good dresser, wears scrubs to work and is in a process of losing weight hence no new clothes which is fine ) but you are right one little thing arouses internal fears of something else. In this case it was fear of him just not fitting in

Then I make strange connections. We recently had s Picnic and I made food. He was supposed to bring chips, whipped cream for fruits and drink. He brought everything rather ****** quality. And I asked if he could bring sports drink. He brought one. I immediately got upset why does he want to share a drink, is he that cheap, can't I have my own. Turned out he intended it for me but he himself wanted water. Still why one drink? And quality of what he brought well he just doesn't know any better.

He once forgot his wallet and was embarrassed . I assumed he did it on purpose as I dated a guy once who conveniently forgot his wallet all the time and I always paid .

He brought me flowers and a huge sticker with price was in my face. I assumed it's on purpose

I do little things for him but then I think he will use it against me or take advantage of me

He is just so very different from any men i even know let alone dated. I am anxious about that. I like that he is different but it is like too different

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