Let's make believe that the icon to my left are your emotions. One guilt, one conscience. Right now I'm bucking the biggest odds are that you do not really know how or who to trust with this secret. Well, it's not the kind of secret you can share with the world. But you just did. And what is happening now? You have gotten some great support from people you do not even know. How's that compare to a therapist? They help you sort out your feelings and begin to separate good from bad. They are not there to judge you, or condemn you for what's happened. You need something to help you straighten your feelings out so that you CAN go on with your life.
Being only 17 though, the embarrassment is overwhelming for you. Don't let this eat you up inside. Sooner or later you will turn the anger and frustration on yourself. Take it from someone who knows!!! Tell your parents. It might not be as grim as you think? If you TRUST
them, they will know how to help and what to do. By the way,
you never mentioned WHO the culprit was???? Family?
Good luck. Think about it. We're here if you need us!!
drmr