I'm SUCH an IDIOT!!!!!!!!!! This is a problem and it's getting to me enough that I want death tonight. How could I be so STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! I have to disengage from this behavior.... but how?? I honestly don't know how to even block the websites on my phone but I need too.

So I ask one thing, help tonight... I'm so close to calling the crisis number just to talk to someone about this. I feel like ****!!! and I don't care about language anymore. WHAT is wrong with me!!!!