I'm sorry to hear you have had so much trouble linking back in with a therapist. I know it seems hopeless now but it won't always be like this. Job hunting is the worst! You are right - it takes a lot of time, effort and setbacks when you don't get the job... but eventually you will get the call.

I really would encourage you to take the steps to link in with a therapist when you are ready. It sounds like it really might help at the moment for you to have someone to talk to. I know that is a long drawn out process but it might be worthwile