And then there were two.....

I got up

I did my morning routine - coffee, a little sewing....
------trying to will myself into another day

I bathe and get ready for work....
-------despite feeling leaden and wanting to just sit

I drive to work.........
---------feeling a sense of impending doom, my insides feeling all jumpy, wanting to just d** and be done with it all

I walk into work.....and begin the day
----------wanting to just scream and scream and curl up in a ball, or run from the building and just keep going forever.......

I perform my duties.......
-----------all the while ruminating, and trying to keep from breaking down and crawling under my desk

I drive home.....
-----------so exhausted from the sheer effort, wondering if I will make it the rest of the evening

I fix food, I eat, I sit, until I can collapse in bed.....and try to sleep, and ruminate, and dread the next day.......