I just recently started to change my diet to reflect healthier food choices. It's given me something to focus on since my husband died. When he was alive we always ate out and I made unhealthy foods and I couldn't stick to a diet because he would tell me all the time that I'm beautiful and that I don't need to lose weight so I would quit the diet and go back to eating processed junk...I do miss that about him (along with everything else). Now that he is not here I am focusing on cutting down on processed foods and eating more vegetables and fruits. I'm trying to eat less sugar but I still have a small treat every day because if I don't I will end up bingeing later in the week because I feel deprived.

I can't do low carb. Proteins do not fill me up. Without carbs I am starving all day and then binge because I'm so hungry. It has never worked for me. So now I'm just trying to get my carbs from fruit and whole grain instead of sugar.

I'm having a problem cooking as of late - it's very triggering to me to cook because I used to cook all the time when my husband was alive and now that he's not I just don't see the point in cooking if he can't enjoy it with me. But my goal is to get myself to cook something maybe once a week for dinner so I can get back in the swing of it. Right now I live on cheese sandwiches and salads and preformed turkey burgers....anything that doesn't require effort. I'm hoping to make salmon tonight and break this aversion to cooking. That way I won't have to eat out as much and won't have as much processed food at restaurants.

I don't know if it will make me feel better mentally but it makes me feel better about myself so that's a win.