Hey all,

I am suffering from manic depression which has been running strongly in my family for about 3 generations. I have phases of troublesome and dangerous tendencies, which consist of fighting with people whether it is psyically or verbally, trying to jump out of moving cars, sticking my head out of car windows, jerking the steering wheel and honking the horn (Im not even driving..) So as these episodes would present themselves I'd be taken to the local E.R and would be given a shot of lorazepam. However, now It is highlighted on my record that ABSOLUTELY NO benzos are allowed.

My dad suicided when I was 7, on drugs and medications, and I don't know it is that, or something else. I am also worried my doctors are talking about me, and thinking im not ill.