Do you have a history of non-compliance, or is there some other reason they refuse to see you? I think sometimes it's best to start fresh with a new pdoc if you get off to a bad start with a current one. My first pdoc was years ago, and I strongly disliked him from the first session, didn't even trust him enough to take the prescription he gave me. I just dumped him after the first session, because I knew it would just wind up being a very frustrating, dragged-out experience of me not complying and him being a d-bag. My current pdoc is pretty great. So might be worth switching if you can, get a fresh start.