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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
I remember way back in the beginning when I was a tot about getting yelled at face to face and beat, I remember being blanked out and then I'd quickly emerge with a hand on me shaking me, hearing screaming at me asking "are you stupid? Is there something wrong with you? Do you have a split personality? Why won't you ever learn?" I'd be sore, trembling, fearful, crying hard. Out of fear I'd say "no" to something that I have no or a vague idea of doing.
I wonder if this is training to immediate switching today, instead of dazing off and coming to later. Since switching is quick, I'm conscience of the next one up, to then fade away.
Sounds plausible at least. I don't know.
Experiences?
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no I wasnt like this,when I dissociated no one knew I had switched into being an alter. example if someone was yelling at me and I dissociated into rainy they would not know it was rainy crying not me. no one knew I had switched so no one tried to get my attention. I did get yelled at for not not listening and such but again they didnt ask me if I had split personality. I was a child during the time when that label was no longer used for DID and mental disorder labels were not just casually thrown around at people when arguing or even in jest. my teachers would tell me to stop daydreaming and get back to work, my parents would say stop dawdling and set the table. no one in general used mental disorder labels unless they were a doctor, nurse, therapist, psychiatrist. psychologist. if anything those in my culture and locations avoided seeing and having to do anything with treatment providers including using the language\vocabulary of a treatment provider. occasionally you would hear a child yell at another child what are you crazy. but thats the extent of anything to do with mental disorders. even when I was in foster care and in therapy no one used mental disorder labels with me.