I personally don't go to that forum as I find it triggers me.

I have struggled forever with Anorexia, It waxes and wanes, its always going to be part of me, like Bipolar is. I am in a good place right now.. I came outta of very rough go around recently. There was talk of a feeding tube. Ack! Luckily I was able to pull out of that hole.

I'm glad your reaching out for help, that is a HUGE step