I didn't accept it the first time I was diagnosed. I stopped my meds and moved to another state not long afterwards. Talk about impulsive! It took about 10 years of reckless behavior and eventual reflection to accept it. Looking back I totally see it. But all I can do now is do the best I can to keep myself stable and mindful of my behaviors so that I know when things are changing so I can reach out to my pdoc or therapist. You will be OK and you have us when you need us. : )