This will be my last weekend until September. It's going to be hell. It will help my finances though. It might be my last year doing this. It's when all the college students leave their apartments behind and it's at the time we have to rush and repair them in 3 weeks.

I've been drinking too much beer. However, after this rush I expect to lose 20lbs since I'm finally off lithium. That stuff will make you gain from 10 to a 100 pounds and I must have stayed on it for... 7 months I believe. It's like the days when I was on Risperdal. God I hated that stuff. I just need to start drinking less beer and Ill be golden.

I don't have complete anhedonia, but more of my emotions come out while drinking. I can feel the words after a beer or two. I get that old euphoric feeling that I use to live in. I miss that the most. My PDoc thought it was the lithium but here I am, with it out of my system. It's the Lamictal. My only other alternative is Depakote. I wonder if just my anti Pyshcotic, Geodon, which treats Bipolar also at higher dosages, could be my only mood stabilizer.

Things could be worse. At least my nightly depression and SI's are gone.