I want to stop the Abilify. Anhedonia like feeling. Completely killing my mind. I think I'm on too much. Like back to 4 weeks instead of 3 would be better. I will ask to stop the 10mg as well.

I feel nothing pretty much.

My mom says that she has a bottle of Concerta. I don't think she'll find it.

Withdrawal is really bad from Concerta. And I'm out until next week because my mom wanted me to enjoy my trip to BC and to take 2 in the morning and 1 at noon and it was perfect. No crash. The suffering and caffiene abuse will happen again unfortunately.

A few days ago around injection time, I was planning on writing around 100 pages and how to prove that I don't have schizophrenia. That's quite a bit of motivation.. It's a fixed belief. Maybe the Abilify is a schizomanergic like Risperdal where taking it too long will cause permanent psychosis as a withdrawal idk.

The motivation with Concerta and caffeine..