I do often feel powerless or too reliant on other people. I feel the need to be in control of every aspect in my life including my interpersonal relations out of fear of being hurt.

I also have difficulties getting women to love or accept me and have been abused or have felt trapped for most of my life and I have trust issues and difficulties bonding with people which makes it difficult to form a relationship for any more than a few months at a time so I feel the need to manipulate and try to control the relationships that I get into which is likely the reason for the mind control based dreams at least.

I also am heavy into fantasy/Sci-Fi and I'm a tech addict as well and I was reading some articles on the internet about how we have already developed brain implants that can make a monkey not like bananas or control the body movement of a rat so I think that being able to do the same thing to humans isn't that far off.

The scary thing? Part of me truly thinks that putting such an implant in a woman's head would be the only way I could ever be in a long term relationship without her wanting to abandon me later down the road.