Well there are some others things to. Usually I'm the only one at the office with her and afterwards she leaves, this is a remote office. So I've never had to deal with other people there before or after a session. She a client after me and I could hear the people talking in the waiting room, just outside the session room. When the dissociation hit I could hear those people on the other side of the door and I didn't want to walk through them feeling like this. Also.....could it be that I was about to say no because I wanted to stay in that dissociation state. It always feels like a push/pull of the mind to try to come out of them forcefully. Like my mind is fighting to stay there. Does that make sense? We did talk about a lot, I was reading off a list of things that had happened the past few weeks since I had not seen her in almost a month, that may have kept me grounded through that.