I'm so sorry that you hurt and that you miss him. Like the others have told you, it is okay to have your feelings. This is a loss, and you have to grieve it just like any other, unfortunately. Having so much grief all piled on top one thing on another like you have recently just is no fun at all. But I know that you can make it through this. I'm here if there is anything I can do to help.

Love,
Wendy