I just feel so depressed and low, I haven't felt this bad in years. I haven't showered in two days and I just feel tired. Tired of living and being numb all the time. I want to feel something, anything. I'm so close to getting a therapist, my mom just needs to call them to schedule a appointment. But last time therapy didn't help me and I honestly feel like I will never get better. None of my psychiatrists have figured out a working medication combination and I'm overall just tired and fed up with it all. I have no friends like a normal teenager would and I just feel so lonely and out of touch.