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Originally Posted by SarahSweden
Hi GreenMoss. Thanks for sharing. 
I feel for you, itīs hard feeling stuck and not knowing how to proceed in life. Is it hard finding jobs where you live? I think there are a lot of jobs that donīt require that you work with people all day long if that doesnīt suit your personality. But it could be hard finding such a job depending on where you live of course.
I think you create a more rewarding life together with someone who really likes you, I would probalbly feel the same as you if I were to meet someone and go on a date. Because Iīm unemployed I feel a bit like a loser and thatīs partly why I donīt take the step and go out seeing someone.
Is there any specific reason youīve found it difficult to keep friends? For me the reason is much about me feeling friends donīt care enough and that they often have other things they prioritize and I therefore often feel I donīt matter that much to them.
Iīm also comforted by books and movies but sometimes my loneliness consumes me and I just cry and feel even more stuck in life. |
My job.... I like the basic labor part of it and I'm good at that part. It was an entry level position and I rose to management after several years. So at this point it would be hard to find work somewhere else and earn the same financially. I'm not courageous enough or motivated enough to seek work elsewhere at the moment. Maybe someday I will look into higher education. But school was hard for me because of social phobia so the idea of college frightens and depresses me.
I think that is why I don't date too.... I feel a bit like a loser. But at the same time I don't want to date just to date. I want to date someone I like.... someone different like me.
I can relate to how you feel about friendships. I try to be empathetic and 'there' for them but when I begin to feel like I'm not getting those things back I drop the friendship. Surely there are healthier ways to deal with this, like maybe communication (which I avoid
), but the minute I feel I can't count on them I decide I rather be alone.
One thing that has helped me a little is realizing the people that seem to have it all together rarely don't. That most people are struggling and maybe even feeling stuck in their own way in their own lives even though you would never know it. Somehow that is a little comforting. A little humbling. But yeah, definitely I have times where I feel like I am the only lonely one. And I just sit and cry.
