I can definitely understand this but it has improved a lot with recent increases in dosage of a few of my meds.

The worst time was a couple of months ago. Every regret in my life flooded my mind all at the same time, over 50 years of regrets slammed into me in the same instant. It was horrible, so bad I thought I would die from my mind racing so fast. I finally ended up taking 4 mg Ativan which quickly calmed me down and within an hour I was asleep, blessed sleep.