Thank you for your post. I know you're not feeling well now, but your story is actually inspiring to read. You are continuing to work at your life.
I sympathize about the problems after the Mirena. Your estrogen & progesterone levels may very well not be well-regulated yet. Give your brain time before you decide that it's forever changed. The brain takes time to bounce back after a substance it has gotten used to is removed. It's very common for it to take a year.
What you said about being concerned with the world really resonated with me. I do think that there are so many disturbing things going on in the world now, things that stretch our faith in humanity to the breaking point.
I find that my ability to handle "the news" drops drastically when I'm feeling down or anxious. During summer 2014, I ended up taking a complete break from reading/watching/paying attention to news/current events because I was very depressed and the news was sending me into a sort of existential despair.
Generally, when I'm not so depressed, I have a slightly thicker skin for the news, although I always keep an eye on how much I let in. My sense has always been that news outlets go for the disturbing and outrageous, and I have read articles that validate my impression. Bad news sells/gets more attention.
If you can work it into your life, seeing a therapist can be very helpful. An antidepressant would probably help you for now, too. If you don't want to take psych meds, there are supplements like 5-HTP and sam-E (kind of expensive) that can boost your mood.
Don't discount the huge effect stopping the Mirena is having on you. I can't remember the brand name now, but I was thrown into a severe depression once by stopping oral contraceptives. I was agitated and crying and having the urge to drive my car into every bridge I saw, which was especially bad because I lived near the coast.
If you are able to see a doctor to talk about the hormonal effects of stopping the Mirena, they might have some suggestions for helping your body and brain to adjust.
There are lots of things in your post that I haven't addressed. I'm glad that you've posted on these forums and hope that you'll hang around. It's a good place to write down your problems/troubles and also to see what similar things other people are going through.
P.S. I think 27-28 is a common age to go through a life stage crisis. I know I did, and I have heard lots of other people say that they did, too.
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