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Old Aug 08, 2015, 09:00 AM
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Parva Parva is offline
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Originally Posted by BlueEyedMama View Post
I know and have always known that my abuse was real but at times I question if me having to deal with it all these years later is 'valid' and get hard on myself for simply not being able to get past the aftermath of the abuse. Therapy is helping me with that as well as with my flashbacks.

Take care and try to go easy on yourself. *hugs*
I can remember some of the abuse, but it's the neglect that really F's me up. I do remember pieces when I was older, but that's about all. I question every day if I 'deserve' therapy based on my past. The flashbacks I have are brutal, too, because they have almost no context and become totally grounded in maternal transference (e.g., my therapist is leaving me, no longer cares, etc...)