<font color="#000088">You are NOT alone in this area! I have the same problem, the thoughts have been terrorizing me for just over 20 years now! I have been trying so hard not to cut for so long because of them,and somehow I've struggled,but made it 7 years now.But every single day I have that stronge urge to just do it!(cut)I know how hard it is,and how terrorizing those thoughts are,because they don't even let you sleep without bothering you. So just understand that you are not alone here,and I know how bad it feels,and it is very hard to deal with.But somehow if you can find some reason not to harm yourself over it,that would be the best choice for your safety.Just remember,these thoughts aren't your fault they are there, so you don't need to keep punishing yourself for them! Fight them instead,try to push them out,by replacing them with thought of things that you like. That's what I do,it's basically like daydreaming,but forcing yourself to,and sometimes it works.But I won't lie,at times the thoughts are too strong for me! But make sure you remember that these thoughts are not your fault that they are there,it's part of an illness, so please don't keep punishing yourself for them by cutting! It took me a long time to realize that, that was what I was doing in a way, was punishing myself for the thoughts in my mind. But you don't need to!I'd think the thoughts are punishing enough,wouldn't you agree?
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