I'm going to have to agree with innerzone. Being alone by choice and being lonely are two different things. I prefer to be alone and enjoy my solitude. Apparently I have since i was young because my mom tells me I played by myself a lot as a young child. Sure there are times when I would like someone to go out with but I usually get over it because of all the extra annoyances that come with it. I do what I want when I want how I want.
Buuuuutt....if I'm in a depressive phase, that's when it's tough, like how I'm feeling currently. But I have to keep doing things that make me happy like when I'm stable. It's easy to say no I want to stay under the covers and complain and be miserable, but I'm trying and waiting for my meds to kick in.
I hope you're able to find some meaning in all of this and what you want out of life.

and I'm a gal that hasn't had a date in at least four years, you're not alone in this. pm me if you ever do wanna vent about it