Hey Kimberly,

Hope you are recovering ok from your dental surgery.

I understand very well the negative effects of 'running' as a coping mechanism.

I was 'on the run' one might say for 15years, even before diagnosed and hospitalized and on medication. Seems I never wanted to be home as a teen, and would 'run the streets' doing alot of nothing alone waiting for the lights to go out at the house (it was never a home to me) then I would go in.

I spent years moving from place to place and never stayed in one place for longer than a year I can not count the times I would move in with people and leave everything or half my stuff behind. Or get put in the group homes and lose everything and have to start over.

I don't know if I asked if you had a Therapist as it seems now I have a Case Manager who is as good as a T and has really helped me just by giving me support. I have been in the same place now for 2 years in December, dosen't sound long time to live in one place, only already a 15 year record for me.

As you said the major changes that have happened for me seem like cause me to 'go numb' or 'out of reality' ending up for me not so much having to deal with. Then the little things like radio station grind me up. Good coping of burning cd's for your music favorites.

I would have to say that if you can burn cd's then that is even better than the radio cause you can choose the content.

Music plays a big role in my moods. Being Bipolar I play all kinds of music. From Grunge to Gospel, seems every mood having its own type of music.

Well said enough, Hope you are getting healed up from your surgery and not too knocked out from the pain meds.

Take Care-
chris