Since your parents are described as being dreadfully dysfunctional, something you should know is that people who are not like your parents respond to such expressions of distress by wanting to quickly come up with solutions and push you to get yourself proper help. That is normal. Your parents may be aloof, selfish ***wads, and they may have conditioned you throughout much of your life to expect apathetic "you'll be okay" responses and nothing more, but your parents are not normal. And you should be upset, about your situation, because it sucks. You're mentally ill with paranoia, psychosis, anxiety, self-harming urges and agitation, with an aloof mother and an alcoholic father who reportedly just gets angry about you being mentally ill. That sucks. It is normal for you to be upset about that, and if you completely freak out at school, that's normal, too. It's normal for people in your shoes to be angry, freaked out and overwhelmed.