Hi bbTofu, nice to meet you! Some years ago I spent a few months in Israel, on kibbutz Or-Haner (near the town of Sedrot).

I'm delighted to find someone here on PC who practices Vipassana. I have used Vipassana as part of my yoga and meditation practice for many, many years. Yes, if you are really 'working your stuff' meditation practice can be extremely intense. But such a productive way to walk our path.

In my experience it can be very, very intense to go deeply into meditation. Please don't be hard on yourself - you've already done so much work! In my opinion you should continue the practice when you're ready to do so. Best to you~