Funny. I opened it where I left off. Chapter 7. It's talking about learning to not close yourself of to painful things. At least that's what I understood. I wish we could use the book in therapy. Like maybe read a little out loud and then discuss what we read. I know, it's not NA. It's therapy but I wonder if you could expand on **** or help me understand by relating stuff to me. Maybe I should be able to do this on my own. I mean, I can. Like what I read I imagined me sitting in your office and you telling me you are leaving someday and I totally shut down. That's exactly what I do and exactly what I think he was talking about. I think he said that if I don't shut down the pain goes away. This is what I don't understand.

So anyway, about my day. It was wasted in on and off depression sleep. I did this until 7:30 ... I think. Also that ****ing inner-voice kept repeating "defective."