(((Caelix))) I'm in the black hole with you right now. Depression really sucks. My meds work but I still have breakthrough depression. We just have to get through this together. I was 5 years old when I first felt my depression. It runs in my family. Things can and will get better for you. Don't give up and do push your mom to make that appointment for you. The sooner the better!!! Hugs!!