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I am 15 yrs old and i have MDD. I didn't go out in almost two weeks. It's said that MDD is caused by a childhood trauma, but I can't recall anything that could lead to MDD. I feel the annoying need to do it. Because it makes me feel good. It makes me feel in control of everything. It gives me the control i don't have in the real world. I even have a best friend there. And he's helping me a lot. My mother is the only one that knows... although i didn't tell her everything.
So.... My MDD started when i was six years old. I create a story (which is planned so well) and then i am acting it out. The thing is... i can do this for 6 to 12 hours and i would not get bored. I am frustrated because once i daydream, i don't wanna do anything else. I am ignoring my friends, my family... and it's getting worse. Even when I'm out i am imagining things, people that i'd like to interact with. Even when i'm writing this i'm imagining.
I just need someone to understand what i'm talking about. Because my MDD leaded to depression and anxiety....
Thank you.
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