Hi, my name is Jessica. I guess I'm kinda having the same problem an earlier poster is having, in that I'm having trouble choosing a religion. I think my situation is a little different, because I have it narrowed down to two. I have been attending a very satisfactory Presbyterian Church that is really great. In the past Buddhism really seemed to appeal to me. Now, at this point in time, I seem to be growing away from God again like I always end up doing sooner or later. I have this problem a lot, and I think it's common to Borderlines. I keep wavering from Christianity back to Buddhism, and back again.

Buddhism seems to make more sense to me logically, but then again I am weary of always changing my mind. I just want to decide upon something and then stick with it, whatever it is. How do I do this? I have never made a very good Christian, and I have trouble with a lot of Christian beliefs. But I'm so scared to abandon this religion and go back to Buddhism because I am afraid God will punish me.

I also like the social aspect of Church, because I am very lonely and don't have any real friends. Going back to Buddhism, my first love, would be lonely but that seems to be where my heart is leading me. I know this message was kind of long winded, but does anyone have any thoughts?