Shadix.... You are absolutely stuck in this stupid cycle. You are allowing this obsession with society and your skewed ideas are making you feel like you cant enjoy your life..

If you spent half the time just going out and interacting with people as you do ranting and raving about what you think society is or had done to make your life so difficult.

Yes your mad , upset and rageful about how life isn't fair.. Its not ! It's life. Some people will like you, some don't. So what !

Seriously, The world doesn't owe you and apology, it doesn't...

My childhood was pretty horrific, I was constantly bullied and much worse things. I had every reason to hate people and rage .. I had a choice... Engage in life and work to having an enjoyable life or sit back whine complain and give up. I made a decision I wanted a life and not get sucked into a whirlwind of negativity. Positive people attract positive people

You are not in middle school, you are an adult. Stop this ridiculous thought process.