Oh dear -- Juliaspavlov, I am so much like this too when triggered : </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
makes me shake and get freezing and paralysed

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I also get a sick stomach .....

please be kind to yourself and take it easy.....
I wish I could help you in relieving those feelings-- but I haven't figured it out myself-

here's some twirly hearts to know you are cared about and heard--

mandy
ps-- so far, the only thing that kind of helps me- sometimes, is distraction, distraction and more distraction...