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Originally Posted by ~Christina
My childhood was pretty horrific, I was constantly bullied and much worse things. I had every reason to hate people and rage .. I had a choice... Engage in life and work to having an enjoyable life or sit back whine complain and give up. I made a decision I wanted a life and not get sucked into a whirlwind of negativity. Positive people attract positive people.
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I made a decision when I was 16, that was a bit more aggressive. Possibly the most aggressive decision I've ever made!
I decided that my brain, and my family, could f*** off and that I wasn't going to let them win. I decided that I was going to win. I've been at war with my own brain for half my life now
But most of the time I win, and I'm living a pretty good life... and enjoy it a hell of a lot more than I ever thought I could. I still get depression (yay bipolar!) and I still have a very low self-esteem and a lot of insecurities and issues that crop up when I get close to people.
So, while I blame my own brain and have a lot of negatives from my family, I decided that I was going to succeed in ways that they thought I couldn't, and that I was going to live the life I wanted and not the life that I was raised to accept.
It just took me making that decision, and then not giving up. Still have to remind myself consistently!