Hi WTBC, welcome to PC!

I'm so sorry that you and your siblings had to go through all that. Children of trauma and abuse usually don't fair well in adulthood. Do you have a therapist that you can talk to?

Some of the things that you described sounds familiar, I'll say that. I have memory issues too. I just have fragments of the past that I know to be real. Even today my days and weeks have holes in it. I couldn't describe a whole day in order if my life depended on it, unless the others helped me out a bit.

It all sounds like you might have some form of a dissociative disorder that you wrote, but I couldn't tell you which one. Even Borderline Personality Disorder stems from abuse. Only a T can tell you what ails you.

I hope that you get well and find the mental relief that you need.