Hi Quiddie,

After you've been depressed for a long time (like most of your life) and having tried various things, you start to lose hope and that starts to also feed the depression. I was like that for a long time until I found something that works amazingly well. I think that you can find something too if you keep searching. Here are some notes

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

and a general plan

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

That might give you some ideas. I am also lately fond of this video that I learned about from festidump:



- vital