Hello everyone,
I am new to this website, please bear with me. I have been going through a breakup with a man that meant the world to me due to my depression.
He has told me that my emotions are out of control, and he can't keep putting himself through that. Then he will tell me that we are still together.
I have not spoken with him in over two weeks. I have attempted to contact him (per his mother, and my therapist), however, he will not respond. He ran when it got difficult for him, however, he was not even experiencing the depression that I was. In fact, we live an hour apart from each other, and did not know what was going on in my life to cause my depression to worsen. Because he does not want to know my feelings. Also, he hasn't wanted to check on me to see how I'm doing.
I am starting to feel that I will never be able to hold a solid relationship with a man because I have been left/damaged by the men that I have been with. Why should I be left, just because I am experiencing depression, which is out of my control? Has anyone else ever felt as if they would never find someone out there to care/love? I feel like it is impossible at this point. I am so broken down...
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