Yeah I think it's fun to be honest. I mean some religious/spirituality themes (for lack of a better term) can be fun and exciting, and when reality gets suspended just enough in my mind, it's like I can immerse myself in it and have fun with it.

It's like burning an incense cone goes from enjoyable aromatherapy, to being a spiritual strength spell, and of course I love lists and playing little alchemist, so books on potions and spells with long lists of herbs and their magical properties = hours and hours of fun for me.

When my mixed/mania spirituality drifts towards themes of demons, angels, etc it can be terrifying but it's still exciting and enticing because it's the feeling that there is something 'more', something more than bills, groceries, mowing the lawn and taking a shower. And also implies that even if I have no control and a crappy life, all of my little choices do matter and do have some greater interaction with higher things. even my delusions about demons can be both horrific and comforting at the same time, somehow less lonely maybe.