I have the same problem. I do live with my bf, but other than him and my parents and brother, that's it. I do talk to friends online who are into gaming. It does hurt a lot, but I really don't know how to interact with people in person.

I went to a family picnic last Saturday and it was so awkward for me. I didn't know what to say to all of my cousins(who are my age), so I just stayed to myself. No problems talking to most of my aunts, but they all have that motherly vibe. Whenever I did come across a cousin, I didn't know what to say. I have a terrible habit of rambling about random facts and history. People don't start conversations that way.

I guess it's different at home...I can be me without any thought. My bf calls me a know it all, and thinks my social awkwardness is cute(I guess it appears like a stereotypical dumb blonde persona to him). If only I could walk up to people and they knew why I am weird.