Welcome to Psych Central (PC). I am sorry you have suffer from abuse and erratic behavior from your mother. Does your mother have any family or friends that might be able to help? What therapy is she involved in or could be involved in to help her get meds to stabilize her condition and a therapist or social worker to help get a path for her life. You really are a survivor coping with all you are struggling through.

What safe places do you have like friends, family or relatives that might be available if you cannot cope with your mother or she gets violent with you again? Having a safety plan is important with such erratic behavior. Getting your mother to go to a doctor, any doctor might be a place to start and then hopefully get a referral. You really sound like you need a partner to deal with this.

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