I don't know the answer...I am the same. Although I no longer wish to seek friendship as it's just to hard work to maintain, it leaves me overwhelmed and the process of 'making friends' is draining..after it I would just want to shut myself away to recover which really defeats the purpose. I am comfortable just having social contact with my neighbours which I can control and school drop-offs etc. I sometimes wish that I had friends but that would involve me to pretend to be someone I'm not and that is pointless. So sorry no advice but I do understand.