you did post before to me. one thing you might not realize is that your first 5 posts dont show up right away, its a spam thing where the first 5 posts of new members goes in to the moderators before they get seen on the boards. this way if its someone intent on harming and spamming it doesnt affect the other members.

no pica is not associated with abuse. dont believe everything you find on the internet, you will find all kinds of stuff that is not true on the internet. having Pica has nothing to do with being abused.

the best place to get information in regards to your self and your history is your own treatment providers.

dissociation happens on a normal level as well as abnormal and can be part of any mental or physical health problems.

I can also tell you that the type of memory problems with DID are a very special kind that goes beyond the normal. I cant tell you if it makes sense or not because I am not your treatment provider...

only your treatment provider can tell you what is going on with in you.

here at psych central we share our stories, a part of our lives and then those that have something in common will reply back. some people who feel comfortable will give virtual hugs and thanks to let each other know they have read their posts and want to give them a hug or thanks.

example of what we do here...

I am integrated meaning all my alters have now been merged back together with me and I am one whole person now. I still have huge chunks of memories that I can not remember... my treatment providers call it normal, part of my having MS (multiple Sclerosis which is a medical not mental problem) those lacking memories are also during times when I was actively having eating disorder problems so most likely because I wasnt eating right those memories never got stored in my long term memories.)...

when I wasnt integrated and carried the diagnosis of DID everything I could not remember was with in the alters memories. when a topic that I could not remember was being discussed the alter with that memory took control and told about that memory. the memories that I did not have at that time were not lost or gone, just stored with in and as alternate personalities.