Ok so I'm sad to say, due to pride, that I did that relentlessly. I prepared to be prepared for any possible scenario for future conversations. I would even put thoughts into others' heads about me and then prepare a dialogue to defend myself. I pretty much assumed everyone else had me on their mind. And guess what? They don't. So first my bipolar was quelled with an AP and then I made sure I told myself that I am just not that stinking important [emoji320]