Thank you for your replies. I'm just trying to get through every day at this point. I'm currently cringing at the idea of going to work tomorrow but I don't really have a choice.

Honestly there isn't anything I'd really like to do. At least nothing I've found yet, and I have tried to figure that out. The few things I do in my free time these days wouldn't really amount to anything career wise. Currently I can't afford to just up and move without a job wherever I would move to but I've put out feelers for that too. Given the choice, I like Southern California, but that might just wreak havoc on my self esteem as I am not the most attractive person on the planet. Assuming I could find a job there (chyeah, good luck with that...). In the meantime, I'm just applying for anything I think I can do in hopes that something will stick and get me out of where I am.

I've done therapy in the past, but it wasn't effective really. Now the insurance I have won't touch it from what I can tell and I can't afford it on my own.

And SilverNeurotic, if you have suggestions, feel free to post them.