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Originally Posted by Chummy
Dear T
I just wrote down everything that I'm scared to tell you. It are several topics. And most have been bothering me for months. I should probably talk to you about it. But maybe after your vacation, which is in two weeks.
When I started therapy again, I was planning on being totally honest this time. I've told you things I didn't told you the first time in therapy. But now there are new things. And I'm not telling you those. I'm afraid you'll think I'm whining. Jealous on you, jealous on other clients with you, insecure about our therapeutic relationship and then some other things I've told you about, but I'm afraid to bring up again.
And I'm suppose to be working on my self-esteem and anxieties, depression.
I'm a real mess.
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Write. Share what you can with your T. But give yourself a voice. The things you shared here, I understand because I feel a lot of them, too. You're not whining - is a cancer patient whining? Your pain is no different and no less justified. I'm jealous of my T patients beyond belief. I scan the room for evidence of other clients every time I get in there. And don't get me started on being insecure about my T...You're not alone or wrong for how you feel, and you have more strength inside than you realize. If you didn't, you wouldn't still be fighting. And you are still fighting.