As much as it hurts, I think the biggest thing you need to do is distance your self from your family. It seems that they are at the center of your struggles. You don't need to completely cut them out, but perhaps cutting down communication with them to a biweekly phone call and a visit once a month. If that. It seems that all they do is manipulate you to have the life they think you should have (where you at constantly at their bec and call) and work down your self esteem.

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