I had originally posted this in 'anxiety' forum, but there was no response. So, I'm posting it here, just in the hopes that maybe someone will come across this and could relate to this experience. So here is it :

I am otherwise ok with going outside, although, would love to stay indoors as much as i can, i have a certain weird sense of anxiety when it comes to going to work.

I have had this butterflies in stomach feeling when in school also. The thought of going to school made me cringe. But i couldn't avoid it somehow. I only loved exams. Because i was prepared well in advance and maybe because there were less interactions. I am an introvert.

After college, i haven't worked much. Since 6 or 7 years, i have been mostly home telling people that i am studying. But the real reason is that i am afraid to go to work. I tried. But i quit after 2 or 3 months. The anxiety build up is extreme. I do not know how to handle. I hate getting up early and then having no time for myself. I need a lot of time for myself. When i don't get any, i feel deepressed.

Also, a lot of interactions also make me feel drained. So i avoid talking much to people. But then i also feel bad when i don't feel the sense that I belong. Why does this happen.? I feel dejected that everyone ignores me and start taking to each other. I feel invisible. I feel as if i am boring. Also, i can't stand bossy and fake people. What i don't understand is that if i don't want to interact with people, why should i feel bad when they make plans without me? Why?

I want to be able to make a great career one day soon and i want to get our of my comfort zone. If anyone had suffered something like this, please enlighten as to how to avoid the feeling of anxiety of going to work. I don't want to take medications.