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Originally Posted by whyguitar
I am lost. I have known this woman for over two years. I am going through a separation. She is widowed. While we were friends she started dating an old friend of mine. The relationship is bad, but she wants to see it through. Meanwhile while trying to help her with that relationship - we fell in love. We cannot seem to stay apart. We have tried. We are not having any physical relations, but I love her with all my heart. She knows. She has tried to push me away, but keeps coming back because we are so close and our lives are so intertwined. I am lost. I want to win her. She is not happy, and admits it, but won't leave him no matter what he does. Help me survive this!
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So last night she "broke up" with him - for the 5th time. This time it looked bad. She doesn't drink, yet had some 5 drinks. Got so drunk she couldn't stand up. I was on the phone with her the whole time trying to talk her down. She called the boyfriend on her cell and screamed at him for a serious relationship breech. ...and I also found out that they had gotten engaged. She wanted him to hate her. To leave her - because she couldn't leave him and hates him. She wanted to die. I rushed over when I realized she had gone too far, and between me and her son we nursed her. I stayed with her all night. This morning after sobering up and a sleepless night she called him and they have just about made up. She told me she doesn't care about him and loves me ... yet morning comes and here we go again. She says I saved her life. ..and now she is back in her own personal hell again. I love her so much - I can't live without her ... seems she has the same issue with the other guy. We can't stay apart, yet can't be together. Now it's my turn to want to die. I'm getting tired of crying.